Trinidad
July 24, 2006
11.38 a.m.
It is very hot here and with the AC not functioning, it gets terrible. The room is designed for air-conditioning. There is no cross-ventilation otherwise and if one opens the solitary window, one can look towards the east….and homewards. Other than that, it is an open invitation to hordes of big, black Caribbean mosquitoes. I used Odomos and the odor instantly catapulted me into an undated past of hot nights on the rooftop, folding beds, water bottles, mosquito songs....
I dreamt of her last night. We seemed to be walking on water and after a while I saw that she had wings and had begun to fly.....Then I woke up and the first thing I seemed to remember was that while traveling now, I have begun to feel extremely giddy and my eyes and ears hurt during takeoffs and landings. Then I fell asleep again and dreamt that I was standing on the shoreline. There were big waves crashing on the rocks. It was twilight and I was alone.
I wanted to eat black-chana today. But I think I put less water, so they stuck to the base of the cooker. I don't like to cook. It is a boring activity.
4.14 p.m.
It is now 4.14 pm and I have again begun to feel the speed of wind. It is very windy and cloudy outside. In the morning it was raining. There is some distance between the car-park and office entrance and one has to walk through that open area.
11.38 a.m.
It is very hot here and with the AC not functioning, it gets terrible. The room is designed for air-conditioning. There is no cross-ventilation otherwise and if one opens the solitary window, one can look towards the east….and homewards. Other than that, it is an open invitation to hordes of big, black Caribbean mosquitoes. I used Odomos and the odor instantly catapulted me into an undated past of hot nights on the rooftop, folding beds, water bottles, mosquito songs....
I dreamt of her last night. We seemed to be walking on water and after a while I saw that she had wings and had begun to fly.....Then I woke up and the first thing I seemed to remember was that while traveling now, I have begun to feel extremely giddy and my eyes and ears hurt during takeoffs and landings. Then I fell asleep again and dreamt that I was standing on the shoreline. There were big waves crashing on the rocks. It was twilight and I was alone.
I wanted to eat black-chana today. But I think I put less water, so they stuck to the base of the cooker. I don't like to cook. It is a boring activity.
4.14 p.m.
It is now 4.14 pm and I have again begun to feel the speed of wind. It is very windy and cloudy outside. In the morning it was raining. There is some distance between the car-park and office entrance and one has to walk through that open area.
This morning, I had to wait in the car before I could walk because the rain was sharp. I was fidgety as I was getting delayed but had to resign myself to the rain which teasingly hung in the air like 'ropes of water' falling from the obscurity of a strange bluish-black sky.For few m
oments, I watched how the rain pelted down. Sometimes, it seemed to dance and play around in the wind and sometimes it seemed as if it is going to crash through the car-roof and remove the barrier between man and nature. Then my attention shifted to the wind-shield of the car. With the engine and wipers shut off, I could see how the water shot down from the top and meandered downwards towards the bottom of the glass like some panic-stricken water-snakes. In a mad competition of speed, they would often intersect the others cutting each other in different sized pieces and a few seconds later they had all perished at the bottom while fresh ones raced to meet similar fates.
In a total of twelve minutes, the sun was out again and I walked to the office in gleaming sunshine.
oments, I watched how the rain pelted down. Sometimes, it seemed to dance and play around in the wind and sometimes it seemed as if it is going to crash through the car-roof and remove the barrier between man and nature. Then my attention shifted to the wind-shield of the car. With the engine and wipers shut off, I could see how the water shot down from the top and meandered downwards towards the bottom of the glass like some panic-stricken water-snakes. In a mad competition of speed, they would often intersect the others cutting each other in different sized pieces and a few seconds later they had all perished at the bottom while fresh ones raced to meet similar fates.In a total of twelve minutes, the sun was out again and I walked to the office in gleaming sunshine.
